My bad

Whoops. I was going to post every week, and it's been a whole month since I wrote anything. And it took a comment from Rosie to get me back here. Oh, well, here I am at last!

This past month at school has been draining. I dropped my 4th class, Theories of Cultural Anthropology. I love my French class. It's 1st and 2nd semester together, as an intensive, and boy is it intensive. The prof speaks almost all in French, and we do a lot of conversation back and forth, practicing particular verbs and vocabulary we are learning. I love it! Don't love the fact that it's a night class, tho....I'm tired by 6:30pm and exhausted by 8:30pm when we're done.

My other two classes are an intermediate interdisciplinary studies course (in which we are learning to write a research paper...boring!) and Advanced Exposition (English). The English class is ok, but I'm rather miffed at the prof. He gave me a D on my first paper, because it was 2-1/2 pages long instead of 3-5 pages. I could see a C, but a D??? Give me a break!

I'm close to graduating (December) but I want to quit now. It's not fun anymore. I'm not learning anything I enjoy except the French. I have to take college algebra in the summer, and I'm so not looking forward to that! Then I need two more upper level English classes, and the senior capstone in interdisciplinary studies (where I'll have to write a 25-30 page research paper related to my degree program, which is Cultural Travel Writer...see, I should have kept the anthro class). I'll need to take other classes to fill in the hours needed to keep my grants, too. And more than 3 classes is just too much for me.

What would I like to take? Hmmmm, let's see....Russian 1 & 2, French 3 & 4, a cooking class (French, maybe). And I'd like to just surf the web and find out deliciously interesting facts.

Here's a taste of some of my interests right now:

Healthy cooking (raw food lifestyle, vegetarianism, blending, juicing, green smoothies, raw milk, cheese)
All natural skin care
Organic gardening (growing my own food)
Herbs (growing, using, and healing with)
Art (decoupage, mainly, and collage)
Unschooling (that's child-led learning, a form of homeschooling)
Travel (oh, please, somebody send me to Paris or Yorkshire!)

There are so many things I am interested in, and I don't want to be an expert in any of them, I just want to try them on for a while. I like being able to cook intuitively, and I adore the basic utensils I've collected (a Vitamix, a juicer, wok, cast iron skillets, molcajete...this is a Mexican mortar and pestle).

Just last night I made what was supposed to be a carob smoothie. It has dates, coconut, carob powder, and water. Then I added a banana to make it thicker. I poured it into my glass, and set about cleaning up the blender jar and lid. When I got ready to drink it, it was solid! I ended up eating it with a spoon, and it was like chocolate pudding. Yummy!

See how easily I get off track? ;-) I'm also very interested in using herbal tinctures to heal myself, as well as getting my veggies in a green smoothie.

Back to my original dilemma: I want to quit school. Why? Am I terrified of finishing, and then being expected to go out there and support myself? My dream is to travel the world and talk to people (hear their stories, and maybe tell stories); however, I cannot do this until my daughter is 18, and out of school. She's 15 now. She'll be 16 1/2 when I graduate, which leaves me a year and a half to figure out something until I can take off. I'd love to live part of the year in England (summers) and part of the year in Spain or Italy (winters, of course). How I will earn my keep overseas (or here, for that matter) I have no idea yet. I know that I don't relish the idea of working for a corporation, with all the bureaucratic crap. So what do I do? If anyone reading this has a suggestion or 3, let me know, eh? I'm looking for ideas.

OK, I'm running out of steam and need to do some homework before I head up to school to tutor this afternoon. Talksoon!